9:09 AM

C H I L D R E N

I want to love what was lost

I want to keep going

It was always uncomfortable to listen to

The pining was always there

Hearing his beat always kept me in that place I need

Seeing him there made my toes curl and the lump in my throat grow

with each hit

Most say that but not in the way that you think

I have been wanting to be there with him for as long as I have known him

And then I was and it was exactly how id imagined it

And when he spoke it was better than I could have possibly

Imagined

it

And I wanted to be there

All the time

When I was not

And outside of that place and all the exchanges in between

Damaged the flourish of what was growing

We couldn't convince ourselves of its beauty

I am getting back there slowly

Because we were there and we saw

The freedom

He didn't but

He wished he was

in close proximity so that he

could

And I will never leave you behind

Mark my words here

I will never leave you behind

You would never leave me behind

and here we are again

back to reality

back to basics

back to love without word and hearty throat fondness mind fuck

back to cursing without apology

back to plugging in with the buzz

without hysteria

with analytics

without

pedestals

i like to go back and forth

i dont often give unless i want

to

get

and i'm sorry

for that

and i'm sorry

there isn't room for us both

you say

and i'm sorry

that i like it here

and that

i wouldn't want to leave

even if i could

and its never felt so good