it's today

pushed through a kind of forcing i never wanted to know

(or did, but was too afraid to go alone)

alone i am and have to be

most would scoff at my unease

the beginning has always been the hardest

and

after a significant amount of ticks and tocks

its seemingly harder to start

things are never as bad as they seem

she's always told me and so

i've always seen

but

here we are

the beginning

i don't wanna be adjusted but

i will

if it makes things easier