still

We mentioned while we were there how similar we felt
Entrapped with beauty but hearts still beating to that same drum and every morning waking up to that sandy-eye'd gaze
And it wasn't until I looked back that I realized how far id run
With him but, still running
Bittersweet song and sigh
That was never for me and I should have known that
But
I can feel it reeling me in again and I don't want it to
It felt so cold when I saw it there
(from there)
Perhaps because I was surrounded by honesty
But
That really shouldn't matter
Because until then I thought this was real truth

You don't remember all the promises you made me
And that's ok
I don't remember much of what I don't mean either
But I know what it's like to feel like you mean it
However
When you locked me in that corner and forced my gaze I could feel you drinking me
And it hurt almost-- I remember feeling as though you could see me naked
And it frightened me

But then I look in the mirror and see mine
Overgrown with unkept
And freckles that look like dirt
Recurring red bumps and the hair
I don't deserve to have.

Sometimes I feel all I need is this book and her... Though not crying beside me
I'd rather she walked freely but
We are both scared
Naive and
I really do love her too much
him when we are both reeling in new
Helping to get to where we need to be
And sometimes
I really feel like that's what I've got
And I like that